"Bailey" The newest member of the family

OMG he's got 3 thumbs!

That was the first thing my mom said when they brought out my nephew Josiah... This tells you so much about my mom "Superficial". Nothing about how perfect he is or how his smile melts the room (it still does). It was all about how he had an extra lil digit on his right hand and "when was the earliest we could have it cut off?" Hell the ole lady probably would have chewed it off with her teeth the way she was going on and on about it. This was almost 4 years ago.
This last X-mas my mom made a small comment about my weight. "OK" I have gained no more then 20lbs, in fact I weigh less then 170lbs and I am almost 6 feet. But by the time I had left my parents house my mom had wrote out a diet plan for me to loose all that grotesque weight.
Since then I have done nothing less then fret over what she said to me. Last night I broke down and told George how fat I feel and how disgusting I am . In fact I did this right before we had sex. He told me how foolish my mom is and that I look better now then when I met him (April 1, 2008). That was all it took and I feel so relieved, normally I would shake it off, but as a gay man who is about to turn 38 years old this month all I could think was that I am going to turn into RUBY. She is the big girl from E. This reminds me I am watching to much TV.

I am so ready for 2009.

This last year seems like such a bblluurr. It feels like it only started on April 1st the day that I met George, "Yes we met on-line" and "no we didn't have sex the first date." And since that day until now it has been nothing short of ecstasy, in fact it feels sorta like being on ecstasy now that I think of it. I am not saying we don't have out ups and downs but truly it is an amazing time for me. Blah BLAH BLAHH. I won't put you through such sugary crap. I had not dated for a really long time in fact I probably only had maybe 20 dates at the most (not including one night stands) my entire life even including girls. I just feel very thankful this year and can't wait to start a new year with my best friend. I hope everryone has a happy New Year!!

Ps. My sister is having a little girl due in March and she is naming her Eva Cheri' (total stripper name) and my nephew keeps calling her Eva Snake, can you say Freudian slip?

George and I @ Christmas

OK I WENT TO JIMMY SWAGGART BIBLE COLLEGE NO BIG DEAL

Wow I said it...Most of my friends and even close friends have no clue. Sometimes they even think I am an atheist the way I talk. It's not that I am embarrassed or ashamed it just opens up a can of worms and so many questions.

The first question that everyone asks is why that school? The truth is that I just wanted to be as far away from my parents as possible and that meant moving from Missouri to Louisiana and when you have such protect/overbearing/ultra-conservative/crazy/psycho parents you do anything that you can.

College albeit "JSBC" made me the man I am today. I realized that I am a gay and it also gave me room to grow and become a stronger person, especially for things to come like being disowned (oh well things happen).

He liked it! He really liked it!

Last night was a total success!! I am so darn proud of myself.... It only took 1 1/2 hours for something an experienced chef and or 5 year old could have done in 30 minutes like the recipe said lol. The only downfall with cooking is cleaning and that took an additional hour but it was all worth it.
Not only was dinner superb but also after dinner sxx was great in fact I had seconds. That took place right after the scallops and as always was wonderful.

PS, I probably won't give details of my sxx life but who knows.

It's the thought that counts?

Today my George (boyfriend) turns 35!!! The greatest day of my life, I am soo very thankful for him. I have been planning this day for weeks and I hope it turns out for him. All he wants is a nice quiet dinner for just him and I. He doesn't know that I making the hardest dinner I have ever made or have even thought of making. I normally would go to one of out local restaurants and get take out but not tonight. I am making seared jumbo scallops with a champagne-vanilla butter sauce, with roasted asparagus and grilled Caesar salad and to top it off I am making cherries jubilee flambe'. WHO AM I KIDDING!!! I am going to totally "f" it up I have no cooking skills all I can make (that is good) is grilled cheese and chicken noodle soup. This meal is way to complicated and decadent that I am sure it will turn out like hockey pucks and everything else charred. I am hoping he will think the old saying "it's the thought that counts" and not think what a looser. Hopefully I can end the night with wonderful sex and he will be overwhelmed not by my food but what we make in bed.